What if your social media page wrote its self?

“Don’t be intimidated. Eventually everything is going to be out in the open, and everyone will know how things really are. So don’t hesitate to go public now. Don’t be bluffed into silence by the threats of bullies. There’s nothing they can do to your soul, your core being. Save your fear for God, who holds your entire life—body and soul—in his hands.” Matthew 10:27-31

I heard this quote the other day, “The devil wants to shame you in the area God is most likely trying to use you”. -Christine Caine

So I started to think about the areas of my life that have been shamed, I am sure you have those too; those deep parts of yourself that you don’t want anyone to know about.

Because then everyone would know that you really don’t have it all together, even though you make “hot mess” jokes from time to time.

But what if we really just vulnerably put our TRUE selves out there?

What if there is healing not only four ourselves but for other people in the testimonies that we try to bury the world from?

What if there is freedom just on the other side of revealing your truth?

What if people were real, and the imperfect-ness of social media was exposed?

What if your social media page wrote its true, authentic, self?

What would your status say?

What would be posted on your wall?

With trembling hands, I write my truth.

I am so tired of the devil shaming me in the areas that I am afraid people will find out about.

I admire people who can be authentically themselves, transparent, and free from other’s opinions.

I want to be the woman that only concerns herself with what Jesus thinks of her

So here’s my truth;

I am insecure.

People say that I am loud, overt, and social.

Authentically, I am most comfortable when I am alone.

I struggle with anxiety; social, separation, non situational, situational…

The enemy uses my anxiety to ATTEMPT to keep me from doing God’s work.

I sometimes allow “what if” scenarios to spiral out of control.

I have been in talk therapy since I was nineteen years old.

I want another baby but the depression that I had with my first two was so debilitating, I’m not really sure that I could make it through another pregnancy.

Sometimes I struggle with my purpose in life.

I get discouraged with the purpose of this blog.

My marriage has faced some effortful times.

Self worth is often astray.

Can we normalize being authentically real?

Can we stop allowing the enemy to shame us?

Can we just shine a light on these things, call them out, and move on.

There has to be freedom and self acceptance in speaking your truth.

I am in no way minimizing the God that we serve by speaking my truth.

I am just simply losing the grip the enemy has over my struggles.

I apologize for anyone that may have mislead you into believing that christians do not have struggles.

That is not true.

Being a christian gives you a loving father who never leaves you in your problems.

I have seen miracles.

I have received miracles.

I believe that God can heal every area of my life.

I also believe that God gives us wisdom to help ourselves.

If you want to lose weight are you going to pray to lose it and sit on the couch eating Cheetoes?

or are you going to use what God has given you to make the results happen?

My struggles are some of the very things that keep me in constant communion with the holy spirit.

God has given me the tools to rebuke the enemies schemes, to call peace to my mind, and to speak joy into my soul.

I pray that these battles that I have fought on my knees will one day be a testimate for someone battling the same things.

I pray that other women will begin to authentically choose the person that is truly them and not the one that is fabricated on social media.

I pray that people will start to speak their truth, aligned with God’s truth, in an effort to help other women.

So Satan you can take this shame somewhere else.

Because here it all is.

This is me.

An open book.

My very authentic, imperfect, self.

Redeemed and set free by a God who is perfect in every way.

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